expiration date 

instead of going through the 500+ photos of the holiday and upload them to the site…. instead of type down a whole month entries that has been waiting to be written up and uploaded… i procrastinate and draw myself again.

drawing of myself is pilling up. it started when i was in college. one of the assignments of Drawing 101 was to draw our own face 100 times. i’ve never stopped since then. the range is from tiny sketches to 4’ x 4’ closeup of my face. i have memorized almost every features of my face.

for a while, i thought i suffered narcistic complex or something. but a few weeks ago, when i was in New York, i talked to Jane about the habit to draw ourselves. she often uses herself as a model, too. we concluded that the reason we draw ourselves so much is because we don’t have readily available models. especially if we were thinking of some strange poses, say… nekkid poses (hehehe). the other reason is, if we uses other people as a model, they end up too hung up over the resemblence of the drawing/painting. or the pressure would come from ourselves — we ended up spending a lot of time worrying and fixing the face of the person so the drawing would look like the them (in a way they interpret it)… and it has to look good, too, so it wouldn’t hurt their ego!

oops, i guess i’m ranting. let’s get back to topic. below is the drawing i was talking about on the earlier paragraph. and it defies all the reasons i just laid out. this one is done purely for narcistic reasons. hehehe.